Pain Management Community

I'm new to this site and I'm looking for help. I'm a 46 yr old female, I have been diagnosed with all the above plus more. I have been on anti-depressants,anixety, & pain meds. since the 90's as well as collecting disabitlty from the state(2001) for the above diseases/injuries. The meds. that I take daily Cymbalta90mg,Alpralazam.5mg,Vicodin 7.5mg,Doxepin 40mg at nite.Theses medicines have helped me to continue my daily activities(housework,raising now a(13 & 16yrs old) I have moved from a big city to a small town. I had to change drs. due to this move, it has been almost 6yrs in my new community. As reading some of the potstings I too have been let go by my PCP did get a 30day notice to find a new one right after Christmas. I asked why when I called an operator told me that my urine test came up negative. After thought I called back and was told thatthere were none of my pain meds in my system and my dr. had to let me go. Now I get a 30day supply of all meds an need to call for my "narcatics" monthly. Over the holidays 2rxs were dated of when to be filled, now I have had 3 diff. drs. at this facilty each one has had there own way of doing things an my last dr. had told me that on narcotics she will only give a 3day prior oof when it's due. Apparently In Nov 2012 I recvd. my meds. on the 5th, I called 3days ahead recvd. on 12/01/2012.( I don't pay cash or try to get any medication prior to 3days ahead I have the pharmacy print out to prove this plus my medicare part D won't pay if your not in this 3day, and I don't have the cash) Anyway from 12/1 to 12/31 is past my 30days. i called Drs. office on the 31st for my refill and they said Im not due till Jan.4,2013??? I was back & forth with operators on hte dates and was told I had to wait until the 3rd now cause my dr. will be back from vacation & I could talk to her then. Fine, but late Wed.afternoon 1/2 I got a call to do a urine test(no problem) about 4pm & I needed to be down there before office closed at 5pm. I had no vehicle & explained could I do it first thing Thurs(1/3) morning was told that was fine. I got down there did urine test and asked what this was for. The nurse said to see if I had any "street drugs" in my system since I supposedly called more then 3days of when my rxs. were due. Once aagain it was fine. Now I recvd. this letter after considerable evaluation my dr. could now longer be my pcp and I have 30days from this letter to find a new one. I was upset and callled the drs.office(keep in mind the dr. never called me personally or was available when I called) I asked why regarding letter, I was told that there was nothing in my system?? As she explain no signs of my Alpralazam or Vicodin in my urine screen. At this time I've been trying to get new dr. but always asked what meds am I on or what is my diagnosis or what insurance. I get were not taking new patients at this time, or this dr doesn't handle the rxs. that I am on. I can't get my medical records unless I have a new dr. to send them to, or I have to pay for each page out of my own pcket to recv. my records. I don't have that kind of money & if your dr there no longer wants me as a patient I feel just give me my file. I was dumb not to make copies when I first came up here, I had originals of drs, dentist, obgyn,etc file...and I gave them without no thought of what is happening now. I feel lost,scared with no one to talk to. I felt I did nothing wrong but if anyone out there could lend me a ear I would greatly be thankful as I am really starting to loose it!