Hello,
I'm not sure I'm in the right place or not, but this group was the closest to what I'm going through.
So, I had a surgery back in March 2009 to add inches to my lower left leg to correct a birth defect. I was under the impression that I would initially have the surgery and recover within 6 months tops. I had no idea that 21 months later, I would still be "recovering" from this event.
The first surgery in March went very well. I had an external fixator on my leg for 5 months, wore a cast for a month, then got my walking boot. Everything was supposed to get better and I should have been walking soon.
Unfortunetly a completely unforseen complication occured. During my rehabilitaion and recovery my leg was actually bending the opposite direction! I can't walk on a bent leg! there is no way! It took us (the doctor and myself) to determine that another surgery and more external fixators would have to be installed to correct the curveture in my leg.
June 2010 I had the surgery and shortly after, more complications. The pins supporting my leg had almost all become infected, and there was no real way to treat them. These wounds became larger and more inflamed and I was struggling every day to just make it through until the next. I had to keep the pins on until the bone healed and the pins could be removed, which meant 4 months wearing the fixator. This became more and more difficult for me to cope with since there was no way to treat the growing ulcers around the pins sights.
The end of Oct finally comes and we get to remove the pins!! I was excited to get rid of the damn metal gear and focus on my recovery, the only problem is my ankle still looks crooked to me. The doctor says it is because my muscles have tensed up in that position and need to relax in the straighter position. I can only really do that by standing on it, and that hurts since the muscles are so tense and I have lost ampel amounts of muscle in my lower leg.
I have been taking pain meds the whole time, but now he wants to cut me back, maybe even take me off of them completely and I'm not too confident that completely stopping the meds will be benificial to me. I only take one pill a day. Surprisingly that manages my pain. But if he wants me to continue to "straighten my own limb" I do not want to remove the meds completely.
I don't know what to do anymore. I can't work due to my condition, I haven't been able to do anything "fun" in almost 2 years, the meds are giving me mood swings, flu like symptoms from reducing my doseage and I feel utterly trapped.
Sorry this post was so long, I just wanted to explain the situation and possibly get some feedback.
Thanks for listening
Pixi