I've been feeling pretty crappy since I've been on medical leave from work for the past 3 weeks. I haven't really said much about feeling sad to anyone because I don't like them assuming "it's the hormones"!
Yesterday, my dog found 2 baby birds that had fallen out of their nest. I totally lost it. I cannot stand it when animals are in pain/danger. The worst part about it was that no one seemed to care and looked at me like I was just being an unreasonable pregnant woman. I called my husband at work, crying, to ask him if we had a ladder. It was my mission to return those baby birds to their nest. He got our friends to come by and they saved them. I was very grateful that he didn't treat me like I was being unreasonable.
Today I've been crying, also. I'm having a hard time sleeping. When I try to sleep in my bed, I feel like I'm smothering. I can get maybe 4-5 hours a night in my recliner. I'm also feeling pretty uncomfortable with this growing baby bump. My ankles keep swelling, also.
I was reading in Rooni's post how people like to make comments like:
1) you better sleep now because when the babies come, you won't sleep for 18 years
2) Make time for your husband because after the babies come, you won't have any more alone time- EVER
These comments make me soooo mad. Why can't people be supportive? These comments are so negative and they make it sound like parenthood is the end of your life and that my house is going to be transformed into a circus/disaster area for 18 years.
I went to the high-risk OB today and they measured my babies.
Baby Girl is 3 lbs 7 oz and Baby Boy is 4 lbs 5 oz at 32w 2d.
I can't wait to have them. The waiting is probably what's causing my emotional breakdowns. It's been 3 years since we started TTC and I'm just ready for them to be here.
On a brighter note, my high-risk OB noticed that I had cut my hair. There are three doctors at that practice and they have treated me like I'm their only patient. Even my husband doesn't notice when I cut my hair!!! It really made me feel like my babies are in good hands.
Anyway, thanks for reading this post. I think I'm going to go eat some chocolate ice cream now. It always makes me feel better!!!