--formally known as opsiedaisy---
I had my 36 week appointment today (friday july 15) and given the pain I've been in for weeks, especially since last friday, I just KNEW that when I got checked today I would have some dilation and effacement. But I was wrong. It was nothing, I'm still 1 cm thus unchanged since 28 weeks. I don't get it.. what in the world is the point of having all of this pain from false labor and pressure in my lower abdomen... pressure in the vagina and pain so intense in my back and sides that I have been perscribed percocet --- what is the point of all the pain if it isn't doing ANYTHING to my cervix?? I swear I'm almost at my breaking point. I can't imagine having to go all the way to 40+ weeks this way. Next week I'll be term and maybe then I'll get lucky and something will happen but I'm not so hopeful anymore given all the pain I've been in is clearly in vain.
I keep telling myself I want the "natural" progression to happen.. where labor starts on its own but I'm really starting to consider asking if a planned c-section can be scheduled just so I can get it over with. I sound like a wuss, right? Induction isn't an option in Maryland until at least 29 weeks with a healthy pregnancy but at 37 they will do a c-section... I just don't know if I can make it.
I pray everynight that labor starts, that my water breaks.. I don't want to keep popping percocets just to be able to get some sleep and relief but I know me having all this pain, that amounts to me being stressed out isn't good for my little girl either. I just don't understand why my body hasn't responded to any of the "practice" contractions and why I have not dialated any. There's SO much pain... yet all for nothing??