Self Harm Community

well its very good that you've had a meds change sometimes they can be very helpful!
what have you done in the past to keep yourself safe? all you have to do is one day at a time. and if thats to long try l hour at a time and if thats to long 15 mins. at a time.
depression has a lot to do with how we think about things even if you have clinical depression. its really hard to learn to reframe things and change the negative to neutral or even positive.

i guess life has some thorns in the roses if you look around you at mother nature and all that is on this earth...........you will see its just natures way of doing things. tornados, sunamis, death,
forest fires, unexplained tragedy...............but then mother nature says ok well we'll rebuild where the tornados came and people will have children and they will replace the ones who went before us and the sunamis shouldn't come again for another 100 years so we will rebuild on our little island and we will reproduce our civilization, death turns into life in the wake of a baby, forest fires even they reseed themselves and it can be very healthy for the forest to burn off, and then there's unexplained tragedy........

is anythign ever easy it seems not and so sometimes in the depth of depression all we can do is plod along until new growth comes to us in the wake of the spring of seasons. I hope lexismom you will have new growth and do something for yourself that will be a fun and happy thing for you and you only! You deserve to take care of you! fran

I think I am heading into depression right now. It would make a lot of sense. I am feeling very overwhelmed with school, work, and my daughter. On top of that, I hurt my knee somehow and it is really bothering me. The urge to hurt myself is so strong that it is all I think about. I know there are things I should be grateful for, but I just don't feel that way right now.

lexismom-

Start your gratitude list with the basics:
I am grateful I have a roof over my head; I am grateful I have a job; I am grateful I have food in my fridge; I am grateful for my daughter, etc.

If you can list out the things you're actually grateful for you'll see your life is a lot better than you think. It helps offset the negative images in your mind if you can see that you really have good things in your life.

Like Fran said, One Day, One Hour, or One Minute, at a time.

Kate

Hello and thank you for responding. I have quite a few things I should be grateful for right now. Like you said, I have a good job, a wonderful daughter, and a place to live.

I just feel so depressed right now, I just want to crawl into a hole and die, literally. I feel so bad right now. I can't seem to see past that. I just don't know what else to do.

hi,

I understand completely. What I do is each day give myself a reason not to hurt myself. It can be something big, like the people in my life who will be hurt if I'm gone, or something small like I ordered something on line and need to wait for it to be delivered.

The other thing I do is try to meditate & self soothe daily. It allows me to quiet my mind. I usually meditate just before bed, but I sometimes do it when I first wake up. As far as self soothing, it can be anything from a candy bar to a nice long hot bath. Just something just for me.

And when all else fails, I call my therapist or a crisis line.

Kate

very good suggestions kate!