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DOGDANCING_TCOS posted:

*********************************************** ****************************** ******************************************* *************************** ***********

I crossed some line yesterday. That invisible line in my head where I give up fighting the urges and SIV slides back on the table as a viable coping skill.

I dislike this head space.

I am heading into two weeks of covering for co-workers and zero down time.

My grandpa died last night after a failed surgery.

I just don't have the strength to war within my head also.

My arm recovery has had a set back.

We can't catch our breaths. We need to find a way to slow things down/make the world stop for a day so we can find our footing.

I hope my grandpa's memorial service is any day but the 7th. I am locked into a commitment and can't attend that day. I would like to go to support my husband and his family as they grieve.

I will have to make my son 100% responsible for lighting the fireworks on the 4th .....or else I know exactly what I will do.

to tallo heto hey.

I'm not really a psychopath, I just play one on the internet.

6 Replies |Watch This Discussion | Report This| Share this:trigger<li>*********************************************** ****************************** ******************************************* *************************** *********** I crossed some line yesterday. That invisible line in my head where I give up fighting the urges and SIV slides back on the table as a viable coping skill. I dislike this head space. I am heading into two weeks of covering for co-workers and zero down time. My grandpa died last night after a failed surgery. I just don't have the strength to war within my head also. My arm recovery has had a set back. We can't catch our breaths. We need to find a way to slow things down/make the world stop for a day so we can find our footing. I hope my grandpa's memorial service is any day but the 7th. I am locked into a commitment and can't attend that day. I would like to go to support my husband and his family as they grieve. I will have to make my son 100% responsible for lighting the fireworks on the 4th .....or else I know exactly what I will do. to tallo heto hey.

Kate_Te responded:

Keep Fighting Paja. I'm so sorry for your suffering. I hope your arm gets better soon. I hope you are able to attend your grandpa's memorial. Hang in there! Know you are loved. Know I am praying for you.

Kate_Te

Report This| Share this:triggerKeep Fighting Paja. I'm so sorry for your suffering. I hope your arm gets better soon. I hope you are able to attend your grandpa's memorial. Hang in there! Know you are loved. Know I am praying for you. Kate_Te

jankearney123 replied to Kate_Te's response:

I echo what Kate te wrote. Keep fighting. You're having a really hard time right now but as we no life ebbs and flows
and it won't always be like this. Is there some sliver of hope that you can hold onto for right now? just one sliver? and then find another to build on. I definetly sympathize with you with your arm problem and the loss of your grandpa. I hope your grandpa lived a long life and it was a good one.
I know for me when my grandparents when i was an adult and had children of my own passed I was thankful they didn't have to suffer anymore.
I don't know what you're beliefs are after our body is gone but i believe we go somewhere that is somewhat like eutophia.

God Speed Paja and hold on. Keep writing if it helps ok.

Fran

Report This| Share this:triggerI echo what Kate te wrote. Keep fighting. You're having a really hard time right now but as we no life ebbs and flows and it won't always be like this. Is there some sliver of hope that you can hold onto for right now? just one sliver? and then find another to build on. I definetly sympathize with you with your arm problem and the loss of your grandpa. I hope your grandpa lived a long life and it was a good one. I know for me when my grandparents when i was an adult and had children of my own passed I was thankful they didn't have to suffer anymore. I don't know what you're beliefs are after our body is gone but i believe we go somewhere that is somewhat like eutophia. God Speed Paja and hold on. Keep writing if it helps ok. Fran

Off_The_Wall responded:

I'm really sorry about your grandpa, Paja! Like Fran said, it sounds like you've got several things going on all at once that are contributing to your struggles right now. Hang in there and be gentle with yourself knowing that this is not an easy time for you. (((Paja)))

Report This| Share this:triggerI'm really sorry about your grandpa, Paja! Like Fran said, it sounds like you've got several things going on all at once that are contributing to your struggles right now. Hang in there and be gentle with yourself knowing that this is not an easy time for you. (((Paja)))

lostkate responded:

So sorry for your loss, everything happening at once can be overwhelming, hang in there.

hugs
Kate

Report This| Share this:triggerSo sorry for your loss, everything happening at once can be overwhelming, hang in there. hugs Kate

Caprice_WebMD_Staff responded:

Thinking of you all, Paja. (((safehugs)))

You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
~Christopher Robin to Pooh

Report This| Share this:triggerThinking of you all, Paja. (((safehugs)))

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