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sittingbull594 posted:
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CRAZY EIGHTS

THIS MORNIUNG I FOUND A PIC OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE ON FB. THERE WAS A MAN WITH A RAZOR STRAP OVER A WOMAN SITTING IN A CORNER. MAN REPRESENTED MY DAD WHO DID THIS AND ME IN THE CORNER.
UGH! UGH UGH!!! THEN I SAW A PIC OF A GUN AND THAT'S ALL BEEN FLIPPING ME OUT! i KNOW ALL THAT WAS THEN AND THIS IS NOW!
I FEEL VERY DISPARGING........I AM SICK AND FEEL LIKE FAINTING CAN'T WALK AND CAN'T TALK SORRY TO ALWAYS BEING IN THE BLUES BUT I TRY HARD ANYWAY. I JUST DON'T FEEL GOOD ANYWAY YOU DICE IT AND ITS HARD NOT TO DICE ME!
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off_the_wall responded:
((((SB)))) It's okay to feel upset when you see something like that and it reminds you of something painful from your past. And I'm so sorry you had to go through that growing up. There are things that remind me of my childhood that just cause me to completely break down too. That doesn't mean in life and in general I'm not still moving forward though. It's just that when something so painful like that has happened to you, you can forgive and you can move on, but you can never forget and so it will always be there in the shadows. Try to be gentle and understanding of yourself. If you saw a little girl (or woman) be treated that way, how would you respond to her? I know you and I know that you would comfort her, you would sooth her, you would be understanding and caring towards her. I hope you will offer yourself the same kind of comfort that you would offer to someone else.
 
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Kate_Te replied to off_the_wall's response:
SB -
I understand your pain. Anything can set it off, but especially something as graphic as you saw this morning. Like OTW says, be as good to yourself as you would that woman. You know we love you here & would do anything we could to reduce your pain. Please be kind to yourself today, because we can't be there to do it for you.
(((((((((((((((((((((SB)))))))))))))))))))))))
 
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mandybutterflykiss responded:
SB,

No words... Just hugs and tears to share your pain.
Gra'

Bonnie

Life is the school, Love is the lesson.
 
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sittingbull594 replied to mandybutterflykiss's response:
thanks. i had another unfortunate incident tonight from a tv show! why do they really have to make tv so ridiculously violent and horrendous????!!!! but i have not sh'd and for that i'm grateful.
i thank u all for writting. i checked in earlier today but didn't have time to respond. I took your advice otw and was as kind as i c/b and ended up eating the afternnon away. i've been sick all day an dizzy ditzy and dang tired/. not as tired as a new mom tho!
thanks again everyone and hope ya'll are stayin sh free too. it will build us up muscles!