IM NOT ALWAYS AWARE OF MY SELF TALK ARE YOU? IM AFRAID IM AFRAID OF BEING FOUND OUT. IM HONEST WIT YA'LL AND MY HUSBAND TOO. I'V TOLD HIM ALL MY STUFF AND EVEN THE BIGGEST BLOOPER I MADE ONE TIME IN MY DRINKIN DAYS. DO YOU RAT YOURSELF OFF? MY T SAID THAT SHE'S NEVER SEEN ANYONE WHO HATED THEMSELVES MORE THAN I HATE MYSELF. DO I HAVE ANY TAKERS? I'M VERY SLEEPY BUT AM FIGHTING TO GO TO BED AND I DON'T KNOW ABOUTHTIS. IM VERY NERVOUS. THE PLANES HAVE BEEN FLYING EVER LOWER AND LOWER AND IT FREAKS ME OUT SO BADLY! REMINDS ME OF 911. MY T SAYS WHAT ARE THE CHANCES OF A PALNE RUNNING IN TO MY HOUSE. WHAT ARE THE CHANCES OF SOMEONE BEING IN MY HOME? IM SUPPOSE KNOW THAT IT'S SLIM. THERE ARE SO MANY CRAZIES OUT THERE AND I KNOW CUZ HE TOLD US THAT THE NEIGHBOOR ON THE STREET IN FRONT OF US TOLD US HE WATCHES US. CREEPY! HE'S NEVER DONE ANYTHING BUT HE KNOWS OUR COMINGS AND GOINGS. GTOOD THING THE TIMES WE COME AND GO ARE VERY STAGGERED AND DIFFERENT ALL THE TIEM . I BURNED AND CUT IN SMAE PLACES TONIGHT. I FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT LIEING AND I MUST ATONE FOR MY SINS.
let me put like this, i do not consider talking to myself. i look as thinking out loud. it can be really not a good/ m,y kids are use to and i try not to be found out when i am in the street. it does not always work. as far as the self hate part she has not met met me, the only thing that i can tell is try to find a coping tool that works for you
~ Live in faith and expect the best. Through every trial, God will make sure you come out better than before.~
Self talk... in todays world of cellphones, ipods, ear pieces, no one seems to know if a person is speaking to another or themself. In doing Self Talk... are you doing so with id, ego or super ego? Parent, Child, Neutral Wisdom...
Ask yourself, are these messages others have given to you and if so, challenge them...
Example: I was taught: My body is not my own. It belongs to everyone to use and abuse. I believed this to be the truth. But now I can see the truth.... I was taught this by Bad Teachers, whose hidden agenda was to use my body for their own sick pleasures. The self hate, the self loathing I felt towards myself, I now see in a different light. I do not have to hate me for what others did to my body... Does this make sense?
I do "rat" myself out, because I do not want to lie. I expect truth from others and also from myself. The challege is figuring out what the truth really is. God bless therapy!
Refuse to live in Fear, SB. Discover what you need to make you feel safe.
Trust me SB the only reason she said that about you is she has never met me (Like Dem said). I cry when I look in the mirror. Try having the wrong body-see what that does to your self esteem. But like Bonnie said, I rat myself out because the only way therapy works for me is if I am completely honest.
I always go back to AA & try to live my life with Rigorous Honesty. It's why when I first signed up for this group - I put my true status out there as soon as I could.
I like your therapist's questions of the likelihood of your fears becoming truth. As far as the neighbor goes, think of it as a good thing. If anyone tries to break in, he'll see them & call the police. Think of him as your personal neighborhood watch (But always make sure your robe is closed when you go out to get the paper).
We all struggle SB. Just do the best you can with the skills you have.
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