Sexual Abuse Survivors Support Community

First of all, hello to this group and thank you for being here. I've been struggling to function recently and decided to try this form of support. I am middle-aged and have struggled with depression-type issues what seems like all my life; however, at the end of last year I thought I must be going crazy when I started getting flashbacks and intrusive images, messages, etc. into a childhood I didn't even know existed. I am connected with an excellent therapist and have a small circle of friends who are supportive, but at 1 a.m. this avenue seems like a better choice for reaching out.

On one hand, these terrible FBs have been a blessing because it explains so much of why I am the way I am. On the other hand, obviously, they have rocked my world and I sometimes find myself wondering if I can even survive all this without it overwhelming me or driving me into a depression I cannot overcome. Tonight is one of those nights where I am restless, sad, and so very tired of this stuff, and I find myself wondering if I am just crazy after all...Maybe none of this is real.

I could have chosen a depression community or a weight loss community, to name a couple, but I chose this community because this subject is the root of those other problems.

I have read a few other threads on here so far, and I, too, certainly relate to wanting to retreat from everyone and everything. Tonight is one of those nights.

I will keep this fairly brief. Thank you for "listening" to me.