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    weird experience.

    got deeply triggered by something that flooded me with the sodomy memories.

    Only thing is those are Ste's memories. I am not used to them coming through me. I observe them from the side, detached.

    Having them channeled through me was TERRIFYING.

    I know what happened happened to me but I have never dealt with it from this angle.

    To not have Ste come take those back was awful. Bloody awful.

    Right now this work I am facing seems overwhelming. Those memories belong to me, mentally and physically, but I have not owned them even from the get go.

    I am thankful this "integration" is going sooooo slow. This is the inital split in my mind (that I know of).

    These memories are ones I DO know about, and still its massively overwhelming.

    Don't need any replies, just talking aloud.
    I'm not really a psychopath, I just play one on the internet.
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    Caprice_WebMD_Staff responded:
    Sitting here with you, listening.
    You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
    ~Christopher Robin to Pooh
    tnmist responded:
    I hear your strength.
    Thank you for posting.
    It is helpful.


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