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*********************WARNING>>>>>>>>>>>TRIGGERING********************Being stalked by a perp.
mandybutterflykiss posted:
Many of you may recall, how I wrote of a man this past spring, showing up here at my apt and my being in a disassociation state and out of it also because of my Pdoc prescribing a new med that interacted with other meds I was on and this had an od affect. When I came to, I was naked on my BR floor and severely ill. This man then sent an email at that time that read: "For a sleepy head, you sure were great." I was told this was rape... Other tenants had let him into our "secure" building and I do not recall more then hearing him at my apt door refusing to leave. I thought I hid in the closet with MandyCake but can not be certain. I must have let him into my apt.
My T, Pdoc, Regular Doc, Police Specialist...etc all received copies and were alerted.
Did I ever mention that this man had worked for Mental Health in a group home? Came from a family of police officers?
Anyhow, after the incident he would show up here at my apt building and so I had to take action to keep him away and now... the emails are starting again. This is the second in one month and I copied only bits of it to give you all an idea... it gets very graphic and disgusting as it involves bdsm, group play, etc... He knew and knows how to trigger me to disassociation.
I sent copies to all the powers that be again as I'm afraid that the emails are a start to his stalking behavior and that he will show up here...
To top it off the male tenant who tried to kick my door in last year is STILL here. He has gone after several women and a teen girl. I'm back to feeling like a prisoner in my own home. I'm okay when my partner is with me but she works during the day.
Why? Why does this crap continue to happen? Why is it the past and present continue to collide with me at the center of it's storm?
I am waiting to hear back from Women Safe in regards to a restraining order.
I'm sick of constantly having to fight. Sick of being sick. Sick of being me...
Anyhow, thank you all for listening...

To: bonnie machia
Sent: Monday, July 29, 2013 11:13 AM
Subject: Control....

"As you return from a shopping outing, a construction worker admires you as you pass. You smile and say hello. he asks where you live and you point to your building. You are in tight jeans and modest heels and have a man shirt on the reveals your breasts beneath. He follows you and you show him into your place. he does notice your slut kneeling in the bedroom, hands bound and ball gag and blindfold covered. When you offer the ice tea you bring it over and open almost all the buttons on you shirt. He accepts the drink and enjoys looking at you body as you show it a bit. Then you ask him if he would like to be pleasured. When he realizes what you are offering he looks toward the bedroom and then smiles at you...."
tnmist responded:

When things don't make any sense, remember God has not forsaken you.

"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away."

He will also take care of any justice issues.

"If anyone causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea."

I hope better days are ahead for you soon. Be safe.

Every day begins with an act of courage and hope: Getting out of bed. - Mason Cooley

marysings responded:
Mandy, this makes me incredibly sad. Have you thought of putting several dead bolts on your door?

Don't let this man succeed in making you miserable. From now on, don't even read his emails. If you want to send them on to your care team, then tell them you have not read the email. Then delete it. (That would take an enormous amount of strength which I'm not sure I could do but then giving advice can be very easy, can't it.)

I hope and pray that you find a way to stay safe.

I'm strong willed and I tell it like it is. I make mistakes, I'm sometimes out of control, but I love and give with all my heart.
tnmist responded:
Mandy, I apologize if I sounded preachy. I didn't mean to...It sounds like you are in a lot of pain, and I'm very sorry to hear that things are so confusing and current situations are taking its toll on you, too.

Mostly, I just want to let you know I'm thinking of you and hope you have better nights and days soon.
Every day begins with an act of courage and hope: Getting out of bed. - Mason Cooley

mandybutterflykiss replied to tnmist's response:
Thank you Misty. Not preachy... loving... reminding me that I, too, am a daughter, of God's...

tnmist replied to mandybutterflykiss's response:
You are welcome, Bonnie.
Every day begins with an act of courage and hope: Getting out of bed. - Mason Cooley


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