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HPV- A Bump in the Road
Strengthwithin posted:
Life came to a complete halt after my visit to the doctor just a month ago. I was told that I have HPV after sleeping with only one partner in my entire life. I looked up like the doctor had to be joking, but tears filled my eyes as I saw the truth in her eyes. At the age of 20 I felt like my life was over, who was going to want me.
Living with the shame of what I have began to overwhelm me, I didn't want to be hugged or anyone near me. I feared and still do giving this dreadful disease to someone else. I worried that no man would ever want to be with me, and see me as someone dirty and unworthy.
Slowly, I have begun to find peace and strength by informing those around me on how to protect themselves. I was naive and uniformed just how easy it is to spread, and can be spread just by genital skin to skin contact.
I still struggle daily now with feelings of worthiness and acceptance. It's sometimes difficult for me to share how I'm feeling with family members, when they don't understand what is happening to my body and how it makes me feel.
At 20 I felt like I had the world at my feet and that I was invincible. But now, I have realized that this happened to me as a result of my choices, and I must learn to live with it. I have drawn on faith to get me through this, with this scripture close to me "No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13.
Living with the shame of what I have began to overwhelm me, I didn't want to be hugged or anyone near me. I feared and still do giving this dreadful disease to someone else. I worried that no man would ever want to be with me, and see me as someone dirty and unworthy.
Slowly, I have begun to find peace and strength by informing those around me on how to protect themselves. I was naive and uniformed just how easy it is to spread, and can be spread just by genital skin to skin contact.
I still struggle daily now with feelings of worthiness and acceptance. It's sometimes difficult for me to share how I'm feeling with family members, when they don't understand what is happening to my body and how it makes me feel.
At 20 I felt like I had the world at my feet and that I was invincible. But now, I have realized that this happened to me as a result of my choices, and I must learn to live with it. I have drawn on faith to get me through this, with this scripture close to me "No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13.
7 Replies |Watch This Discussion | Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the RoadLife came to a complete halt after my visit to the doctor just a month ago. I was told that I have HPV after sleeping with only one partner in my entire life. I looked up like the doctor had to be joking, but tears filled my eyes as I saw the truth in her eyes. At the age of 20 I felt like my life was over, who was going to want me.<br /><br />Living with the shame of what I have began to overwhelm me, I didn't want to be hugged or anyone near me. I feared and still do giving this dreadful disease to someone else. I worried that no man would ever want to be with me, and see me as someone dirty and unworthy.<br /><br />Slowly, I have begun to find peace and strength by informing those around me on how to protect themselves. I was naive and uniformed just how easy it is to spread, and can be spread just by genital skin to skin contact.<br /><br />I still struggle daily now with feelings of worthiness and acceptance. It's sometimes difficult for me to share how I'm feeling with family members, when they don't understand what is happening to my body and how it makes me feel.<br /><br />At 20 I felt like I had the world at my feet and that I was invincible. But now, I have realized that this happened to me as a result of my choices, and I must learn to live with it. I have drawn on faith to get me through this, with this scripture close to me "No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13.
fml123 responded:
Im in the same position. I just turned 20 a few days ago. In april my partner told me he found out he had hpv. We had been having unprotected sex for 9 months. I went to the doc in May i took several pap smears within two months. I took an hpv test and she told me it didn't come out positive or negative. she did a culture exam and told me not to worry about it because i never came in contact with his warts. A month later she told me it showed up in the culture. I'm 20 years old, and i have hpv. I have good and bad days. Where i feel like im strong enough to deal with it but then i have bad days, when i feel helpless, angry and scared. I haven't had an outbreak yet and im terrified of having one. I don't know if i will ever find someone who will want to be with a girl with an std. I never saw this coming
Non of my friends understand what im going thru. they say "ohh poor thing" everything is gonna be fine but they lack the emotional pain im going thru. My partner who gave it to me, can give two s**** about me. They say you live and you learn. Sucks i had to learn using a condom the hard way.Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the Road<img src="http://img.webmd.com/community/images/sad.gif" align="top" border="0"> Im in the same position. I just turned 20 a few days ago. In april my partner told me he found out he had hpv. We had been having unprotected sex for 9 months. I went to the doc in May i took several pap smears within two months. I took an hpv test and she told me it didn't come out positive or negative. she did a culture exam and told me not to worry about it because i never came in contact with his warts. A month later she told me it showed up in the culture. I'm 20 years old, and i have hpv. <br /> I have good and bad days. Where i feel like im strong enough to deal with it but then i have bad days, when i feel helpless, angry and scared. I haven't had an outbreak yet and im terrified of having one. I don't know if i will ever find someone who will want to be with a girl with an std. I never saw this coming <img src="http://img.webmd.com/community/images/frown.gif" align="top" border="0"> Non of my friends understand what im going thru. they say "ohh poor thing" everything is gonna be fine but they lack the emotional pain im going thru. My partner who gave it to me, can give two s**** about me. They say you live and you learn. Sucks i had to learn using a condom the hard way.
Strengthwithin replied to fml123's response:
Outbreaks are not the worst thing to happen. When they do, it is best to get them treated right away. I was told that keeping up your immune system is a great way to help your body fight off the virus. And then again you may not have an outbreak.
It's difficult for others to respond because they may not understand the virus, or the right thing to say. There are so many misconceptions about HPV which make it difficult to discuss with others. I was with a guy who didn't know what HPV was nor that he had it.
I know I struggle a lot now with how people will react when they find out, but I see it as a way to educate people, and that I must be that much more selective of whom I chose to share it with. I wish you the best of luck and love to hear from you.
It's difficult for others to respond because they may not understand the virus, or the right thing to say. There are so many misconceptions about HPV which make it difficult to discuss with others. I was with a guy who didn't know what HPV was nor that he had it.
I know I struggle a lot now with how people will react when they find out, but I see it as a way to educate people, and that I must be that much more selective of whom I chose to share it with. I wish you the best of luck and love to hear from you.
Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the RoadOutbreaks are not the worst thing to happen. When they do, it is best to get them treated right away. I was told that keeping up your immune system is a great way to help your body fight off the virus. And then again you may not have an outbreak. <br /><br />It's difficult for others to respond because they may not understand the virus, or the right thing to say. There are so many misconceptions about HPV which make it difficult to discuss with others. I was with a guy who didn't know what HPV was nor that he had it. <br /><br />I know I struggle a lot now with how people will react when they find out, but I see it as a way to educate people, and that I must be that much more selective of whom I chose to share it with. I wish you the best of luck and love to hear from you.
fml123 replied to Strengthwithin's response:
Thank you for the advice, i greatly appreciate it. Yes, indeed the doctor adviced me to take my vitimins and eat healthy to build my immune system. I'm far from being healthy from eating to smoking. Which i probably should stop. I read on the internet that if your under 26 your immune system and fight the virus, and it can be gone for good! Which I hope to happen for the both of us and everyone else. Your right, not eveyone has an outbreak. Unfortunately, my insurance company didnt cover all of my exams. I paid 3 doctor copayments of $50 plus i have 6 other bills to pay from my insurance that didn't cover everything. I'm not working at the moment. Im depending on my past partner to help me pay the bills. I fear, having an outbreak and not being able to afford treatment. Indeed, I am talking to someone he knows about my HPV but gladly and shockingly he understands and accepts me. I know condoms don't protect 100% so i deffinately want him to get his gardasil shot to protect himself if we ever took it to the next level. It's a relief to find someone that accepts me with an std. I do actually feel vulernable to him because i don't know if i ever will find someone else who will accept me. I wish the best for you!
Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the RoadThank you for the advice, i greatly appreciate it. Yes, indeed the doctor adviced me to take my vitimins and eat healthy to build my immune system. I'm far from being healthy from eating to smoking. Which i probably should stop. I read on the internet that if your under 26 your immune system and fight the virus, and it can be gone for good! Which I hope to happen for the both of us and everyone else. Your right, not eveyone has an outbreak. Unfortunately, my insurance company didnt cover all of my exams. I paid 3 doctor copayments of $50 plus i have 6 other bills to pay from my insurance that didn't cover everything. I'm not working at the moment. Im depending on my past partner to help me pay the bills. I fear, having an outbreak and not being able to afford treatment. Indeed, I am talking to someone he knows about my HPV but gladly and shockingly he understands and accepts me. I know condoms don't protect 100% so i deffinately want him to get his gardasil shot to protect himself if we ever took it to the next level. It's a relief to find someone that accepts me with an std. I do actually feel vulernable to him because i don't know if i ever will find someone else who will accept me. I wish the best for you!
Strengthwithin replied to fml123's response:
That's wonderful that you have someone else to talk to. I know that's been the hardest thing is talking about it. It's hard for me too even want to talk to guys. The second I get started talking I draw back. It'll take time for me to trust again.
I wish you the best of luck to you as well. We are all on this crazy journey. It's just one day at a time.
I wish you the best of luck to you as well. We are all on this crazy journey. It's just one day at a time.
Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the RoadThat's wonderful that you have someone else to talk to. I know that's been the hardest thing is talking about it. It's hard for me too even want to talk to guys. The second I get started talking I draw back. It'll take time for me to trust again. <br /><br />I wish you the best of luck to you as well. We are all on this crazy journey. It's just one day at a time.
abe648 replied to Strengthwithin's response:
It sounds like all of you are gals. So I want to tell you that there is someone who will love and accept you for who you are. I am not familiar with HPV but I urge all' of you to seek counselling if possible so that you can be helped to deal with this. Also learn as much as you can about HPV. Knowledge is power. Remember that God Loves You.
To learn more read the Herpes Handbook. Terri Warren's book The Good News about the Bad News. It is available now as am e-book. Click on The Tiger to get more details.
Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the RoadIt sounds like all of you are gals. So I want to tell you that there is someone who will love and accept you for who you are. I am not familiar with HPV but I urge all' of you to seek counselling if possible so that you can be helped to deal with this. Also learn as much as you can about HPV. Knowledge is power. Remember that God Loves You.
Ugh i finally began to move on and accept my HPV until today. I I was completely caught off guard by a letter from my doctor saying she needs me to come back in to discuss my biopsy results. As far as i know biopsy test for pre- cancer or cancer cells I was so worried about getting warts It never crossed my mind if I was one of the very few to actually get cervical cancer. I am sooooo worried and stressed.
I was so worried about getting warts It never crossed my mind if I was one of the very few to actually get cervical cancer. I am sooooo worried and stressed.Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the RoadUgh i finally began to move on and accept my HPV until today. I I was completely caught off guard by a letter from my doctor saying she needs me to come back in to discuss my biopsy results. As far as i know biopsy test for pre- cancer or cancer cells <img src="http://img.webmd.com/community/images/sad.gif" align="top" border="0"> I was so worried about getting warts It never crossed my mind if I was one of the very few to actually get cervical cancer. I am sooooo worried and stressed.
Strengthwithin replied to fml123's response:
Sorry I've been so busy with work. I hope all is going okay with you. Some interesting things I have learned from my doctor.
What she shared with me was 80% of people come into contact with the HPV virus, and it displays differently for each person; some people it never displays in. She also shared that even using condoms doesn't guard you against HPV.
Crazy to me. I hope all is going well and I keep you in my prayers.
What she shared with me was 80% of people come into contact with the HPV virus, and it displays differently for each person; some people it never displays in. She also shared that even using condoms doesn't guard you against HPV.
Crazy to me. I hope all is going well and I keep you in my prayers.
Report This| Share this:HPV- A Bump in the RoadSorry I've been so busy with work. I hope all is going okay with you. Some interesting things I have learned from my doctor. <br /> What she shared with me was 80% of people come into contact with the HPV virus, and it displays differently for each person; some people it never displays in. She also shared that even using condoms doesn't guard you against HPV. <br /><br />Crazy to me. I hope all is going well and I keep you in my prayers.
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