Singles Coping

So I was chit chatting on another post and one of our members prodded me into posting my own discussion. I hope yall are ready for mouthful.
I have been single since January 1st of this year. Yes ol Peewee left me on new years day. We were together for 3 years on and off, he is just crazy in his head I have decided. I am 22 and he is 25, I met him when I was 18, and had just broken up with my high school sweetie of 4 years... so I have been in two pretty long term relationships so far, and have been wanting to stay single for an entire year, cause I have literally not been single for longer then 4 months since I was 16. Thats not entirely healthy when you see it from that perspective. I have been doing really good being single for 9 months now~!. I am actually ten times happier. I had lots of problems with depression, when peewee left it really tore me back cause he told me he wanted to get married, and I had a pregnancy scare. I was letting him stay with me for free, and he wasnt working. We were doing just fine until I decided to stick up for myself and told him to get a job or get out, so he got out. I tried so hard to be patient with him, cause he had a bad year but there is only so much I can do, you have got to help yourself, a boyfriend aint supposed to feel like an over grown son. Needless to say im glad he is gone and realize that I cant change a man, I cant get these fixer uppers and fix em up this aint an old house, these are people and people must change themselves. So I am tryin to find a man, who is ambitious like me, I crave independence, I need a man who needs to feel independent too, some one who fails to take care of themselves, just really pisses me off. I need a man who has a car, and a darn job. I NEED A MAN, not a BOY.
I am enjoying being single for the moment. I dont even want to pursue any one.
last week I was all confused cause a couple months ago I started sleeping with a good friend of mine. He has been a friend for 7 years and never had touched me sexually up until recently. we were fooling around for a while and then he got all anxious and nervous around me and like wouldnt look at me or sit next to me or touch me, and wouldnt talk to me about it, like he had this huge wall up on me!. I was being absolutely obsessive about this for a month! It was driving me crazy... why wont he touch me? why wont he kiss me again? what is the problem all a sudden?
This weekend we all went out the bar a big group of us. Another pretty good friend of mine... ill call him B and the other one is Z. Well B just got out of Jail. So obviously he does not meet my standards. I will not settle for jail birds. B was a good guy with a good job, and got hooked on heroin lost his job lost alot alot alot of things including my respect, but that doesnt make him unattractive when Im drunk. So I did not entirely plan on it but I slept with B saturday night and Z was at the bar with us and for the first time in a month Z was touching me and tryin to get next to me, and I caught onto this and found it rather funny, chose to rub it in his face and sit on Bs lap, then I let B take me home with out saying bye to Z. ha ha ha I hope he is jealous, cause I have been so sexualy frustrated for 2 months cause he was... I dont even know. Why would Z back off from me and get jealous as soon as he sees me moving on? I mean it makes sense but it doesnt. And I gave myself a pep talk "your not ready for a relationship so who cares about whos feelings you hurt" really is that a good thing to tell myself though? Like I dont wanna break no ones heart, but I aint gonna get walked on anymore either!