Hi Ladies!
I just needed an outlet to vent my anxiety and my nervousness for our first IUI attempt. I will be doing u/s and bloodwork on cycle day 3 with 100mg Clomid on cycle days 5-9, then on cycle day 10 I am going to start using OPK's to detect an LH surge so that I do not miss it. If not detected I am already scheduled to go in for an u/s on cycle day 12 to see how many follicles and their size. Then I will receive the prescription for the HCG trigger shot (ovidrel) to induce ovulation. The following morning DH will go in for collection and then an hour and a half later I will go in for my insemintation. After the insemination, they will insert a sponge to keep the sperm close to the cervix and in the uterus. The sponge can be removed 4 hours later. And this process will be repeated again the following day. Then the 2ww begins. Normally this would be the time that I would go crazy, but with the new quarter beginning Jan. 9 and being 10 weeks long, my brain will be certainly occupied with school work and interning. Hopefully that will make the time fly by.
But the point of this rant, I have been trying for so long and expect every month for AF to show her uninvited face that I feel that I am not emotionally prepared for the treatment to work. And if it does, I would be afraid to do anything for fear of harming or losing the baby. It will required a lot of coaching and support for me to do anything remotely active. Thus far it has been just trying, trying, trying...once it happens it will be all about carrying the baby to term, making it to deliver the baby..then I would feel once I am able to see and hold the baby that I would be able to breathe a sigh of relief until the panic of the real world dangers set in.
Does any of this make sense?