Trying to Conceive: After Loss Community

Vybe - Ah that sucks to get your hopes up like that! Hopefully AF will be kind to you this month.

My update: CD30 -- AF should show tomorrow. I'm at the end of the 2ww but I don't feel any better about it! I'm trying not to test until AF is a few days late, because of a few reasons. In March she was 4 days late, which was torture. Also, I'm scared of a chemical pregnancy...I would rather just not know. I'm still not feeling any symptoms either way, so I honestly have no idea what to think at this point. I usually get really really weak and shaky 1-2 days before AF, but so far that hasn't happened. I do feel like my breasts are fuller, but they aren't sore. DH even commented on them yesterday! lol Maybe I was just wearing a good bra, I dunno! I know that these things can just be in my head, or they could mean nothing. So many of the early pregnancy symptoms are also symptoms I get with AF sometimes -- talk about torture! What the heck was mother nature thinking?!

Good luck to everyone!

triggers
As I put on my other thread, I got a BFP friday.
I was so excited and couldn't tell anyone so I posted here, not thinking about MD being Sunday, so I truly hope I didn't make anyone's weekend worse, and if I did I apologize, because I do understand how hard that can be!!

My bfp came up much darker Sunday. I went for labs today. They ONLY did bloodwork (kinda thought they would do a urine test to confirm, THEN do the labs, but maybe since I told them I got a positive pregnancy test at home they just took my word for it?) Anyway, now I just wait.... hurry up labs!!
Vybe- Last month I got a fake out like that on a blue dye test. I hate that you had to go thru that, it really gets your hopes up (((hugs)))
Brittanie- I agree, it really sucks that AF and pg symptoms are so similar!! Baby dust to you!

*.*.*.baby dust*.*.*. to all the ladies, and ~~~~o~~~~ vibes to those who need them this week!.

Becky - Congrats! Keep us posted! Sticky vibes coming your way!!

Vybe-I'm sorry you saw those possible evap lines. What tests do you use? I know there is one brand that is known for the evap lines, but I can't remember which one. Hoping if af shows it will be quick and painless, then you can start a new cycle.

Britt-Sending tons of good luck vibes that af doesn't show!!! Keep us posted.

Becky-Praying for great beta results!!! Please let us know as soon as you can.

My update: Cycle Day # 30-Waiting to ovulate

Vybe- hope AF doesn't show.

Brittanie- also hope AF doesn't show

Becky- hope you have great beta numbers

Pray- hope you O soon

Baby dust to all !!!!

Hope everyone survived Mother's Day.

My update-
On Sunday I started spotting and went to the RE today and they said my numbers went down and I was m/c again. I had a feeling this might happen because my numbers didn't quite double and my RE put me on progesterone to see if maybe that would help but it didn't. So right now I'm in limbo. I have an appointment a week and a half from now and then I'll find out what my options are if there are any left.

Britt- I hope AF stays away and that you get a BFP when you do test..GL and KUP!!
Becky- Congrats again and fingers crossed for a great first Beta!! KUP..
Pray- Sending tons of O vibes your way..GL this cycle and keep your head up!
Perry- I am so sorry that this is happening to you again ((hugs))
I wish there was something better I could say to make you feel better..I hope that your RE can help you find answers to that you may be able to move on from this..
((hugs)) again..

Vybe - Ughhhh, damn lines! I hope you are feeling ok and that against the odds aunt flo decides not to show after all.

Britt - Your pretty strong to resist testing, I could never do it lol. I hope she stays away and you get your BFP!

Teacher - YEA! Congrats again!

Pray - I know its been a rough month for you, sending you lots of O-vibes and hoping your spirits are lifted soon.

Perry - I am so sorry, I know there is nothing I can say but we are always here to listen. Life is so unfair.

I will save my update for the PAL board, I dont want to upset anyone.

Good luck this month!

AF didn't show first thing this morning, so I couldn't resist grabbing a test when I was at the store. Came home, tested, and when I wiped there she was. Awesome! haha So needless to say the test was BFN. I can't complain too much since it looks like AF will be kind this month. I still don't have any symptoms and it can just stay that way as far as I'm concerned!

I think DH and I are planning on going to Cedar Point next weekend if we can find someone to keep DS for a day. Then my due date is coming up on June 8, so that's the day we decided to leave for our Virginia Beach vacation. I will have a busy month to keep me occupied until it's time to test again, so I shouldn't have time to be too bummed.

Perry - I'm very sorry this is happening. I hope your RE can at least give you some options.

Pray - Hang in there and stay strong. O vibes coming your way!

Oh Britt that sucks! I have done that before, tested and wiped and realized I just totally wasted time, $$, energy. Boo!!
I am glad you have some fun plans coming up. That always helped me. (((hugs)))

Perry- I am so so sorry There are never the right words to say. Sending (((hugs))).

Pray- big hugs to you, and lots of O vibes being sent your way. I am praying for you!!

Hi All,
Hope everyone is well. Can't say that this weekend was a very good one for me. Mother's day this year really got me down this year. Last year at this time I had never been pregnant and just thought, "not mothers day for me yet..." This year I felt like I was being asked at every corner "do you have any children...?" A bunch of the parents at school asked as we sent home the mothers day gifts that the children had made. It broke my heart. I had a nice time with my own mother but felt very empty to not BE a mother.

To make matters worse, yesterday the doctors office called to say that all the bloodwork came back negative so I still do not have an answer to why the recurrent m/c I have a consultation on the 31st with the doctor we met on the day we found out I had lost the latest. Then I'm considering going to a specialist?? Thoughts??

In better news, AF came and went. CD 6 for me. She only lasted about 3 days (with about a week of spotting before) but was pretty heavy. Also, this thursday I am going to a support group at a (somewhat) nearby hospital. Its for people who have lost pregnancies due to m/c, stillbirth, ectopic pregnancy etc. I'm really looking forward to it--I love you guys here but am kinda looking forward to talking to some people in person too.

Vybe--hope AF stays away for you! Sorry about the evaps!

Britt--sorry about AF showing and wasting a HPT. I hate feeling like i wasted one! Good luck next month!

Becky--Congrats!! Hope everything goes well for you!

Pray--sending you O vibes! And i read your other post. I'm sorry you are feeling so down lately. i hope your prayers are answered soon. Dont feel like you are alone. May is pretty upsetting for me too. It is the month I concieved for the first time (though I didnt know until june) plus mothers day. No fun! Hope it gets better for you soon!

Perry--Sorry this is happening to you again. I hope you can get some answers soon! Do they have any clues as to why this has happened so many times to you?

Good luck to all this month!

Michelle- I'm sorry mother's day was difficult for you this year
I am happy that you finally got your cycle back (yay for that) but I am sorry that the tests did not shed any light on the recurrent m/c's..
This is just a thought but I have recurrent m/c's if I don't receive a win-rho injection once during the pregnancy and once after birth.. it has something to do with the blood type being negative..there is info about this online..have they checked for that?
I think going to a specialist a great idea if that is what you and DH want to do..personally if I was m/c recurringly again and the reg. OB couldn't tell me why I def. would want more testing done but that's me..do what feels right for you..
I hope you like the support group and that it brings you some measure of comfort..
((hugs))

Vybe--thanks. I have heard of that RH negative thing but my blood type is O positive so they said it is not a problem. Thanks for thinking of me though. I just want answers and am starting to feel like I may never get them.