Hi Pray..please don't ever apologize for feeling the things you do and for taking some well deserved time away from here..we all love each other but we also understand completely what we are all individually going through..this community is a real family even though we have never met in person and I love sharing with you guys my ups and downs because I know no one else in my life will get like you ladies do..
I am also right there with you about getting your hopes up..we BD a couple times during my fertile window and three days ago I saw some O spotting so I started to think that I could of possibly conceived this cycle but yesterday I kinda confirmed (in my own way) that AF is probably on her way next week..I am feeling so bummed this morning and I cannot believe that I let myself believe again..
To top things off DF and I are no longer together..IDK if any of you ladies remember but last summer we took a break for four months because there were issues we needed to work through and I had thought that we had but in July he came to me to tell me that he wasn't happy in our relationship and that he thought it best that we seperate...I have been such an emotional roller coaster since then and I simply don't know how I am getting through my days lately..I know I never talked about it then and I'm sorry about that ladies but I just couldn't bring myself to tell you all how much of a failure I am when it comes to love and relationships..
So you see Pray..nothing you do or don't do would change how we feel about you..you are like family to me and to all of us I'm sure and I would not change anything about any one of you ladies, well except to have you all get BFP's, of course!! Hope your weekend is going good so far..'til the Monday updates

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