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l8dsheena posted:
It's been one year ago today since my doctor told me my baby died. It's very strange...it seems so long ago, and just yesterday. I remember it all, what I was wearing, what book I was reading, the people sitting next to me in the waiting room, my husband's reaction, my kids' reaction, the nurses' reactions, coming home, that sickly devistated feeling I experienced the next day when I woke up...In my adult life I had never woken up crying before.
But I'm still here...scars and all. Trying again for 10 months for a rainbow baby...when we started trying again the thought of waiting another 2 years for a BFP was so overwhealming, I didn't think I could get through it. But y'know what? If it's going to take 2 years like my last 2 pregnancies did, I'm almost halfway there and since we're being more proactive about our fertility issues, I have a lot of hope for this summer.
I love you, little Anthony <3
Myself (Katie, 29) and DH(31) Praying and trying for a 4th child for 3.5 years. 1 missed m/c @ 17 weeks, D/C 3 weeks later on 5/11/12.
As Aragorn says, there's always hope.
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ani05 responded:
(((HUGS))) Katie.I hope you'll get your BFP soon followed by 9 happy and healthy months.
It was May 2nd for my second loss and I remember every little detail of thay day too.We move on and heal but the memories and the scars are always going to be there.(((HUGS)))
Ani(31),DH(31),DD(6),Furbaby(3).TTC for baby no.2 since 05/2009.BFP on 03/02/2011,M/C on 03/11/2011.BFP on 04/12/2012,M/C on 05/02/2012.
 
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l8dsheena replied to ani05's response:
scars never do go away, you're right...and I don't think I'd want them to, as long as they're just scars and not open wounds. *hugs* back, hoping your rainbow baby comes soon..
Myself (Katie, 29) and DH(31) Praying and trying for a 4th child for 3.5 years. 1 missed m/c @ 17 weeks, D/C 3 weeks later on 5/11/12.
As Aragorn says, there's always hope.
 
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vybe77 replied to l8dsheena's response:
(((hugs))) momma xo
The memories of those dark days do not ever fade from our minds but time makes things easier to accept and deal with...I am loving your new up beat attitude and I just know we will be hearring good things from you soon!
My downbeat moment today is thinking how I woud stil be hugey preggo right now had I not lost the last one...she would be due next month...
Let life be a journey of love
Emily, Kody, Maxim xo
 
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l8dsheena replied to vybe77's response:
I remember you lost your little one right after I joined this forum. I wish I could make you feel better...
<3
I tested this morning on cd#27 btw, BFN
Myself (Katie, 29) and DH(31) Praying and trying for a 4th child for 3.5 years. 1 missed m/c @ 17 weeks, D/C 3 weeks later on 5/11/12.
As Aragorn says, there's always hope.
 
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vybe77 replied to l8dsheena's response:
(((hugs))) for the BFN..those are always the worst ? up until one tests the hope is strong and alive but those tests are like a real tight rope you either stay on and get the BFP or you get the BFN and it makes you feel like you fell off the rope..(((hugs))) again girl..
..and thanks for wanting to make me feel better...I actually have processed my grief over this loss better than the previous two losses...I just sometimes catch myself thinking that next month is June and then the realisation that I was supposed to have a baby in June this year brings all of it back...I try not to let myself dwell there because then I end up being so sad, thinking not only about this loss but all the ones I've been through that I end up missing out on life as it rolls by me...I refuse to let the sad moments of my life triumph like that...I keep telling myself that if it's meant to be then someday it will be...
Sorry to ramble on about myself AGAIN...I tend to do that...
I hope all my ladies will have an excellent weekend xoxo
Let life be a journey of love
Emily, Kody, Maxim xo


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