Hi Anon,
I felt really down and out with my last cycle of Femara/Provera and started to really doubt whether I was going to ever conceive. I just broke down in tears and was feeling horrible about the whole situation. Then I came across this song when I was trying to cheer myself up. It's a Christian song by Matthew West and my husband's and mine's wedding song was on this album but I just let the album continue to play. I had heard the song before, but never really listened to the words until that night. I have posted a link to the music if you want to listen.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=swKPS9q7rMU The chorus really struck home to me:
Maybe the reason for the pain
Is so we would pray for strength
And maybe the reason for the strength
Is so that we would not lose hope
And maybe the reason for all hope
Is so that we could face the world
And the reason for the world
Is to make us long for home
This song helped me to gain my hope and faith back and to not give up quite yet because there is a reason that this is all happening and to make a positive out of it, I challenged myself to grow as a person during this difficult time. I hope that this song provides some inspiration like it did for me, or I hope that you find some inspiration through something (or someone) else to support you in this journey.
Me (23)(PCOS) and DH (23) TTC our first for about a year now. Currently on 1500mg Metformin daily, Provera for ten days and Femara 2.5 for CD 3-7.