Hi Pray and CEB,
I come here from time to time to check up on you ladies. you are always in my prayers.
Pray, i can understand why you would feel the way you do. your struggle has been so long now. but i do believe that in the end you will have a child. you still have a lot of options and treatments are only getting better.
as for your husband, i am sure he doesnt hold anything against you. you are his family and he loves you. one thing i didnt want to say to women here because i didnt want to hear it when i was ttc was adoption. infertility doesnt just rob us of having a child but also from the experience of pregnancy. i thought i could never love a child that was not my own, but when you see a child, at that moment i dont think it matters where the baby comes from, it only matters that you love him/her and they are yours. my point is no matter how it happens, your husband will become a dad and you a mom one day. you guys are already a family, you're just waiting for the baby, who will come one day.
my prayers are always with you.